Is that I know it is the enemy
It cannot be anything else.
The thing about it is
I know what I can do to stop
It reallly is a simple matter
He says guard your thoughts
Arrest every imagining
Bring under captivity everything that arises in the subconscious
Yet, the difficulty seems insurmountable
Aha
That is where he wants you
That place where one thing seems too much
And after finding that one thing
He wll do all he cal to bring it to mind
As often as can be
To be ruminated on and salvaged as the ruth
But the thing is..
It is not at all the truth
Those are only lies
He already told me what I should have in me and how to get it
He already told me I a m loved
So why then am I punishing myself
Why then do I refuse to desist from what rends my soul
Why then should I allow destructive thoughts to take control of me?
WHy
WHY??
When s o much has been done to secure this life for me?
An innocent man given a criminal's death so that my sins hold me not
When ancestors have foughts inner demons and outside kremlins so that I can have self worth
Why
WHY then should I wage an endless war
Against my own self?
Why should I batter myself with defeat
Not good enough
Not smart enough
Not disciplined enough
Not normal enough
Not Christian enough
Not good enough
Not pretty enough
Not god enough Not good enough not god enough not good enough
Whe He wh made all things, knoweth all things
Sees all things loves me?
The thing is, it has to be the Fther of Lies
And say to you
BOOOO!
I gotcha
You almost had me there with your jokes
You a funny lill bird
Singing this song round and round, round and round, round and round \
All the day long.
But I got news for you
Fear
Worry
ANXIety
Low self esteem
Low worth
Disbelief
Disobedience
Self healing
Pride
all rob me from being fruitful
I wasn't put on this earth to cry
or stay up with a heavy heart
I was made to GIVE GOD GLORY
In all that I do.
This is unproductive
Looking at other peoples lives, comparing, judging,
While yet hating myself for not being lik them.
[Psalm 16] promises that my Lord will sustain me
The Psalmist writes of a comforter being the portion of my cup.
And I am thankful that you give each our own cup and fill as you please
I am thankful for salvation by which we can enjoy you
And I know that I have all reason to be bold,
It is afterall a trait of your sheep
To whom you have given a sound mind and boldness
Not fear (2 Timothy 1:7)
I live striving for (Galations 5: 15-26)
Love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance:
Without which being your child is made naught
He gave u protection
in
(Ephesins 6: 11-20)
11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;
15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;
16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:
18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;
19 And for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel,
20 For which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.
I will think on those things.
Protecting myself against dangers in and without
By guarding the doors of mind,
Putting on the whole armor,
lest I leave vulnerability for the enemy's attack
These things will I rest my mind upon
Feast my soul with
And meditate on.
The thing is
God is in control
You are just trying
And this ship will be anchored by the hand that calms waters and parts the red sea
Not by your whips and blows
Get thee behind me Satan
You lose
And I know you gonna try again.
Which is cool That is how you operate
But no matter how much time my studies take
Or how much others live their lives and have success or shortcomings
Or the circumstances see tumultuous
I know steps are ordered in way of the Lord
I know He will guide
He is with me even when you whisper your dirty, slimy lies
And when I believe them
He is there when I catch you
And arrest those thoughts before they seep in
He is there when I glorify Him for giving the Spirirt to dwell in us and around us
Thing is
This is not your world
This is no your body
And you need to know that
Heck I need to know that
SO let me say this in a few words (oh now you wanna be brief)
I am about my Father's Business.
I am seriously tired of you
You are evicted
Those thoughts
Those behaviors
Those lies I believed
Those hurts I thought I needed to fuel a rage too unimportant for an ounce of energy
Kiss them adieu
i know
U thought you had me
Naw.
I m royalty
I am a child of the King
I am a Purple Heart soldier
My commander does not leave me behind
Enemy you are evicted.
Get hence.
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